>>> Shooting one's self in the foot...

... seems to be a really bad talent of mine.

YEESH.

In trying to be fair or just by not watching what I say, I end up doing it to myself all the time... sometimes I wonder how the hell I can manage to balance with my foot shoved so far down my throat.

*sigh*

Three days left to go, and I'm amazed at how I've managed the last eleven days. Probably due to the friends that've stood by me. Thank the GODS for them being around. I don't have to mention names, you know who are.

I miss Purple, I really do. No idea how things are going to turn out, but the chips will fall where they will. The ball's in her court and so's the power. All I have right now, and all I can do, is hoping and praying.

Doesn't stop me from being somewhat nervous and apprehensive.

But at least my gut isn't shrieking with alarms going off in the background, so that has to mean something better than bad, at least.

So, for now, like the past few days, I'm just doing what I have to do. For myself.

*shrug*

Que sera, sera.

_{In other news: My baby brother installed Mass Effect 2 on my laptop. HAHA!!! Finally something better to play ion my laptop than Bejeweled!!! =3}

>>> Hollow...

... and hallucinating?

I haven't been watching a lot of Bleach of late, and yet I keep seeing Hollows everywhere this morning. Probably too much smoking.

No, I'm not talking about the cleaning fluid nor am I smoking any weed or hallucinogens.

I think my body is just too damn tired.

Not too sure why, though, since my insomnia is easing off a bit and I am getting quite a bit of sleep recently.

And does anyone else hate uncertainty as much as I do?

*sighs*

Not knowing what's going on or what's going to happen really pisses me off, but I right now, I feel a little hollow.

Perhaps somewhat apprehensive?

Oh, well. Not much I can do about it, at the moment, I reckon. Everything's up in the air and they'll fall where they will, when the time comes.

*shrugs*

Still slogging my way through school assignments, but somehow managed to squeeze in reading Questionable Content and managed to finish it from the start through all its 1000+++ strips till the latest one. Kind of a achievement, but rather hollow if these assignments get the better of me.

Well, back to work...

... or to getting a break from working on them.

Whichever sounds better.

_{And I really miss someone and could definitely use a hug right about now.}.

>>> No idea...

... for a title.

And here I am, the mild insomniac, sitting on my couch and unable to fall asleep. My neck aches like there's something caught in the crook of it on the port side, my body feels lethargic in general, I would kill for sexxx and I would like to sleep, seriously.

Well, that's the whining out of the way.

I've got my new specs and they cost a bomb. First time that I'm wearing such expensive glasses, cost mom 220$, it was so surprising. And they look like Oakleys!!! How rad is that? *grins*

Hung out with Bruce today, met up with Nani and ran into Eldred. Pretty good times in all for today.

Oh, and the new *SCAPE is like a mini-mall... and a traceur's and/or streethlete's wet dream come true in one spot.

Well, off to puff, see y'all on the flipside.

>>> Some validation...

... is always good.

Met up with two of my old squadron buddies today who I haven't seen in almost two years. It was great to see them, really, even better to hear that, and I quote, "that I haven't changed at all", unquote.

You have no idea how happy that made me. I feel really validated in saying that I've changed back to my old self, the more confident and assured me.

Heh. Eat that, S******ks, you have not destroyed me! I will rise once again!!!

MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Ahem...

... ANYWAYS, moving on.

Ron and Eddie, also known as BlurTwo and LameOne [haha!], were pretty cool today. Awesome time hanging out and just laughing after filling each other in on what's been happening in our lives over the last two years. They even treated me to Pepper Lunch, which was awesome, coz I was so FULL after it.

Oh, and Ron got a piercing someplace unmentionable in polite company, haha! Done at Primitive in Far East.

And getting to see the wonderful people at my old store was nice. Especially Silas, Cash, Shermeen, Nani and Wani. Especially Nani, who's my sister from another mother. It was so good to see her. And Wani had some amazing advice that I'll keep in mind.

To end off the day, I hung out at Bruce's place and watched TV with him and Mrs H.

Mrs H makes the most AWESOME sandwiches and has the most amazing amount of knowledge. Seriously, I'm overtanked now after TWO mincemeat with cheese wholemeal sandwiches.

And she also put forth the idea that I've not been at my best over the last coupla years 'coz of my hectic schedule and sleep deprivation as lack of sleep in significant amounts can change a person's behavioural patterns, in alarming ways, significantly. Something to think about since it means that I might have to find wways to get more sleep.

All in all, a pretty decent day, good in fact.

I'm ready for another day.

SAA IKOUZE!!!

>>> Now this is...

... rather strange.

I never though that I'd ever find myself in my room with the lights off and on my laptop, just reading webcomics until I felt the urge to blog.

I have a major headache and the having my computer screen as the only source of illumination is not helping. Yet I can't be bothered to do anything else.

*sighs*

I don't quite think that I'm moping, but I'm not exactly not doing it, either.

Somewhere in between, like stasis or limbo, I guess.

And I have no idea why I'm typing about this when I'm not even sure if anyone is reading this or even cares about it. And I'm not saying this out of a pathetic need for attention or anything along those lines.

Oh, well, life goes on.